One thing I love about my journey with Living a Sunshine life is the self discovery that has happened, almost without me even realizing it. I know, I’m a bit oblivious sometimes.
There has been learning since day one, there have been ups and downs. There have been celebrations and there have been challenges. I even took six months off to give myself some much needed space. It’s been a crazy ride, and if you’re reading this, I’m glad you’re here with me, whether it’s been from day one or if you’re new, this, what you see today, is the product of my own blogging journey.
Something I noticed this year is that a lot of people are creating a word of the year. This is a word that will help to motivate, challenge, and ultimately define what 2015 will be all about. I’m sure some people will embrace this word and take it to the limits. Others will do as they do with every other New Year’s resolution they’ve made over the years and sweep it under the rug after a few weeks. If you’re me it’ll be just a few days in.
Even with my track record of not sticking with things I want to try out the word of the year. My word is simple. Somewhat selfish on the crunchy outer crust, but oh so soft and generous on the inside. That word is Me.
My word for 2015 is Me. This will be forever known as the year of me! Has a nice ring to it, doesn’t it. Unfortunately if I run around telling random people this and scream it from the rooftops I’m going to be met with a lot of confusion and probably annoyance. It wouldn’t be the first time I’ve had boots thrown at me like a yowling cat. Probably wouldn’t be the last either.
Let me give you a little more insight into my word, because it’s not as shallow as you might think. Last year I did a 2 month wellness challenge. The goal wasn’t to change my behavior right then and there; it was to learn about my habits and behavior so I could come up with an action plan to truly tackle my wellness challenges. I didn’t have a chance to write up a follow up because life happens. It does, you know it does, it happens to all of us.
One of the biggest things I learned is that I don’t pay enough attention to me. I expect a lot from other people, but that’s because other people take a lot from me. I willingly give of myself and I encourage people to continue coming to me. I love helping and I do have pretty good boundaries on what I will allow to come to me, for example if you’re emotionally toxic or come flinging drama all around my house I’m going to put a stop to it pretty fast. Those who do come to me know this and we’ve had a lot of personal growth happening all over my friends and family. I love it. I love watching people overcome challenges and create their own successes, it’s an amazing thing and something I wouldn’t give up for the world.
Here’s where the great big but comes in. BUT, I can’t continue giving of myself until there is nothing left to give because there will come a time when I will be worn so thin I won’t have anything left to give. You’ve read the Giving Tree, right, it’s a lot like that for me. I want to keep giving for the rest of my life, but I have to make changes. Those changes come in the form of taking care of me. Me. There’s my word. Me.
Over the years I’ve gotten away from me. I’ve diligently worn my many other hats, but I forgot what it was like to go hatless. Do you know what it’s like to go hatless? It feels freaking fantastic! It feels like freedom. It feels like I’m me again! Over the past few weeks I’ve started to discover me again. I’d forgotten a lot of the things that I’ve loved and rediscovering them is sort of like an awkward relationship building thing with myself. It’s like I have no idea what I like anymore and slowly I’m learning more and more about me. Do you know what. I like my eggs scrambled.
Anyone? Anyone catch that reference?
So here we have it. My word for 2015 is Me. I need to work on me. I need to rediscover me. I need to reinvent me. I need to focus on me so I can continue helping and supporting and loving my friends and family. I need to be me. When I’m me wonderful things happen. Wonderful things happen because I’m not putting on a mask to be someone else. I get to be me, possibly for the first time in my life. I know, I’ve always been me, but I haven’t allowed myself to be me. Does that even make sense?
Yeah, it’s going to be an awesome year.
Have you created a word for 2015? Share your word in the comments below!